My baby girls rocky start :/

I was released from the hospital on March 17, 2007. Me and my baby girl were finally able to come home! I was so happy and felt so complete! What I wasn't quite prepared for though was how hard it was actually going to be! See, Gavin was only 18 months old and still in diapers! So, I had my hands full! On our first night home, my mama came and stayed with me to help out, since Jeremy was a no show! That night, Kenadi went to sleep at 8pm and the next morning at 4am she still hadn't woke up nor had a bottle since 8 the night before. So I woke her up to give her a bottle. She got choked on it and her face turned blue and red and she began spitting up milk and blood! It scared me half to death!! I immediately called the hospital in a panic!! They said the blood was just left over from when she was born. I was really peculiar over Kenadi because all I could think was, I've got my baby girl here, finally, and it's too good to be true and something bad was going to happen! Anyway, after that was over with the worry still wasn't gone. She was puking ALOT! She couldn't keep anything down. I had had her formula changed three different times. At this point, she was on a formula called Allimentum (that May be spelled wrong) that was $30 for a small can. It was VERY EXPENSIVE!!

Meanwhile, two weeks after Kenadi was born, I got home one day and had a message from Jeremy. He had heard I'd had the baby and he wanted to see, "Jaylynn Cherie". See, before we broke up, her name was to be Jaylynn, for Jeremy because his middle name is Lynn and Cherie because that's my middle name. But after he left, I decided not to name her after him since he didn't care enough about her to stick around! So, I told him her name and he was at work so I took her to Walmart to see her, and I use this term VERY loosely, daddy! He took her around and showed her to everyone with strict orders NOT to show her to his girlfriend!

When Kenadi was a month old, she was still puking, ALOT, and weighed only 6lbs. She hadn't gained not even a pound since her birth! So, I took her to the emergency room. From there it was discovered that she had a heart murmur. She was sent to the pediatric ward at the baptist hospital (this is the hospital that babies are born at not the hospital with the ER) we were transferred by ambulance. She was admitted into the hospital. Of course I told Jeremy but he didn't come! She stayed for two days while doctors ran a series of tests to find out why she couldn't hold her formula down. After ALOT of tests, it was discovered that she had a gastric problem that had a long technical name. It meant that, there's a flap at the bottom of your esophagus that opens when you eat to let your food move into your stomach. Well this flap wasn't opening on her so her formula was just sitting on top of the flap causing her to puke up all her formula! She also had acid reflux and was lactose intolerant. So two medicines were prescribed, her formula was changed to soy and I was to put baby cereal in her formula so she would start gaining weight. Thank God this worked and it didn't take her long at all to catch up! At night when she slept, I had to put her in a wedge on her side so if she threw up in her sleep she wouldn't aspirate on it.

She got off to a very rocky start but she improved very quickly! The arguments between Jeremy and I only continued to get worse! With another court date looming and me not letting him take Kenadi around his girlfriend. At that age, I was the only mama Kenadi was going to have! I didn't feel comfortable with another woman taking care of my newborn baby!

I hated her! She aided in breaking my family up and it wouldn't be long before she and I duked it out.....