Life was just beginning...

I was so happy that my pregnancy was going so well. Besides my blood pressure being high, things were going smoothly. I had been thinking of names for my baby boy and decided on Gavin Riley. Gavin after Gavin Rosdale of Bush and Riley because it fit well with Gavin. My other two friends who were pregnant with me, Melitta and Sam, found out they were having boys as well!

Jeremys sister, Bethany, had moved a few miles from me with her new boyfriend and my friend, Shane. I get a call from Jeremy one day saying he is moving in with Bethany and Shane. When I asked him what happened at Carolyns, he said she was getting "psycho" and kept saying "you're gonna go back with your wife". I said, if nothing was going on then why would she say that to you? What difference would it make if you came back to me? He said that's what I mean my psycho. She wanted us to be together and I told her no. I'm thinking, yeah right! Do you think I'm stupid?! But that was his story and he was sticking to it! But one thing he had done, was doing right by me. I couldn't understand why we weren't together. I loved his so much and all I wanted was to be with him and us be a family with our son! He was here about a month before we brought it up. But a month after he'd moved back, he wanted me to come stay the night with him so I did. The next day I went over to my friend Sams and there was a guy there and Jeremy didn't like it. So I asked him what difference does it make? You act like you don't want to be with me. So that's when he asked if we could get back together. Of course we can! I loved him so much! I thought, things are going to be different now! Just wait until Gavin gets here! He won't be able to leave him! So we were officially back together. I soon packed up mine and Gavins baby things and moved in with Jeremy at Shanes. Which would later prove to be a huge mistake!

When I was 32 weeks pregnant, we ran into some trouble. I began going into labor. I went to the hospital in Farmville because even though I was living an hour and a half away I still went there because I loved the doctors. They were able to stop my labor, thank God. But I was put on partial bed rest and told not to swim or have sex. Also, I developed a disease only pregnant women get called PUPPS disease. It was a rash on my legs and stomach that resembled poison oak and itched horribly! It would only go away after I had the baby! So, I had atleast 8 weeks to go if I carried full term. Luckily I didn't. I was prescribed a pill for itching to help with it. Ugh, it was terrible! It's another type of this kind of disease where you itch but it's nothing there and my doctor told me people had actually committed suicide because it drove them crazy! On July 10, 2005 I had my baby shower for Gavin and got everything I needed plus some! The pictures show more ultrasound pictures, my belly at 6 months and my belly three days before Gavin was born and some pictures from my baby shower and a belly picture from my baby shower on July 10, 17 days before he was born.

I was all ready for my baby boy! The only thing left was waiting for him to get here! Which, in true "Toni" fashion, was not uneventful!!