Hey, everyone! I've avoided blogging for quite some time now because this is where things go terribly wrong in my life. I've wished so bad to go back and change these things, but I can't.. My story continues...
In December, 2007, I began dating a childhood friends brother, Jay*. I'd know him since I was seven years old and his sister, Lynn* and I were best friends. I didn't know him on that level, on an intimate level. When we were young, he was about seven years older than me, he had a problem with his kidneys. He had a tumor that rested on a nerve or something to that effect. Anyway, it caused him to not feel the sensation of having to go pee. (I'm telling what's wrong with him because I feel like this was a big reason why he was so crazy.) Anyway, at this time, I didn't know he still had this problem because when we were younger, he had surgery and I was under the impression that the problem was fixed. I was wrong.
I'm not a small minded person. I don't judge people and I don't care about things like that. It wouldn't have kept me from being with him, that alone. But that was, as I discovered, just a small fraction of the problems he had.
He was like a dream at first. Very considerate and sweet. Done things for me, he was a man! Jeremy couldn't fix things around the house, things a man is supposed to do, Jeremy couldn't do! Jay could!! Before long, that dream spun quickly into a nightmare..
When we started dating, Gavin was two and a half and Kenadi was eight months old. Gavin was still sleeping in the bed with me and since I discovered Jay still has his kidney problems, I was getting Gavin out of my bed. So, one night Gavin woke up at 4 am and I went and laid down with him in his little Spongebob toddler bed and dozed off. I awoke to Jay in a complete frenzy about 30 minutes later. Tearing up EVERYTHING in my house, woke up both kids. So, here we are, me, my 2 year old and my 8 month old, sitting on the couch at 4:30 am, listening to this psycho raise hell because I got up with my son!! Finally, I told him, take a look at what you're doing and why you're mad!! You fucking psycho!! So he shut up and I laid back down with my son. Another night, I woke up and he was in my kitchen at 2, naked, going through my cell phone!! I mean, are you kidding me?!
About a month into our short lived "relationship", we got into an argument because I had gotten my tax check back and he wanted me to rent another place to live, which I was totally against! I wasn't stupid enough to move from my home that was mine into a home in both our names. I'd come home and he'd have mine & my babies stuff outside. No, I wasn't that stupid! At this time, he sill had his own place but he wouldn't leave my house and stopped paying rent at his so he was told to move his stuff out. I was there with him when he just flipped out & I can't even remember why. I was running to his back door and he threw one of his sons chairs at me and missed. For some reason, I thought that was funny and I laughed. BIG MISTAKE!!! He ran after me, screamed, "you stupid bitch, you deserve to have your kids die"!! All hell shot through me! As I was leaving, he kicked my mirror off the side of my car. I went home, gathered a Playstation that he had at my house, and all the games, put it under my car tire and ran over it! I though "if I deserve to have my kids die, than you deserve to have your shit broke!!" Unbeknownst to me, this Playstation was his 5 year old sons. I had no idea, he always told me it was his. Had I known this, I wouldn't have touched it! This is an important part to my story of Jay.
This fight blew over, eventually. About a month later, he had two checks that he had bounced at a convenience store, BEFORE WE BEGAN DATING. He sent me to this store one day while he was at work to pay these checks for him. Well, his baby mamas sister worked in this store. As I walked in, she started cussing at me saying that I better not touch her nephews stuff again, I didn't catch half of what she said. Now, apparently, he had told his BM that I tore it up for the hell of it. Which was a complete LIE!! I would've never touched it had I known it was his sons!! Anyway, I told her, first of all I didn't know it was the babys. Second of all, you don't know what went on as to why I tore it up in the first place and third, I didn't come in here to talk to you about that. It's none of your business anyway!! I come in here to pay these checks for his dumb ass!! I can see why she would be mad about that but it's not what happened!! Anyway, he gave me $200.00 to pay the checks and the total was $217.00. They wouldn't let me pay just what I had. I had to have the full amount, so I left, without paying it. First of all, I didn't bounce the checks, HE DID, BEFORE I was with him! So it wasn't my responsibility to pay his bills. After all, he didn't help me pay my bills, AT ALL! And second, I didn't have money to waste on that because I didn't care, to be honest.
I came home, and really, I wasn't expecting him to act stupid because he's the one that didn't give me enough money to pay it. And it wasn't my fault they wouldn't let me pay only $200.00 on it.
My night quickly went bad. With my babies watching......
*The names have been changed*
